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  • 29 Jul 2021
    My name is Michelle, and I've been a girl inside since I was about 7 yers old.  I'm much older now and can tell you It has been very, very hard living in a different gender than my inner me truly is. The daily heartache of waking up and having to put on a male persona for work and to please my partner really hurts.   However, there have been times where I overcame my fears and said What the Heck. In those times, I would get dressed up, put my makeup on and step out as the real me.  It felt so wonderful to go to shopping, trying on cloths, eating at restaurants, and even going to my eye doctor for cute new femme glasses. I even had the courage to come out to my neighbors as Michelle. Their reactions to me as Michelle was so encouraging.   Because of my living arrangements, my partner asked that I not live full time, and not be dressed when she is around. She didn't want to be known as a lesbian or have a female life partner. That made me truly sad, but I also love her, so I end up only being partially out.   I recently moved to the wine country in Northern California, which turns out to be very conservative, compared to the liberal Silicon Valley/San Francisco area.  As part of that move, I lost my support system and BFF Cynthia N.  She was the first person I came out to years ago, and we used to go out together a lot as friends. I miss the shopping trips, girl brunches,  and just hanging out together.     As for shopping, I was extremely shy and worried at first, but found the stores actually welcomed me. I even had a young female shopping clerk volunteer to go with me on a shopping spree and help me pick out different outfits, clothes, shoes and makeup. That made me feel so very happy!!!   I can relate to you shy girls reluctance to go out, but encourage you to find an understanding sister and start going out. Also, don't let fear stop you.  You may want to do some initial window shopping in the gender you feel comfortable with, and then go back as the girl you truly are to get that great dress, shoes, etc.  After all us girls really enjoy SHOPPING THERAPY.   Michelle G
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  • 03 Aug 2022
    x Just a quick note -   I've noticed that hardly anyone wants to blog anymore.   Reading past blogs, I've learned a lot and would be hopeful that other girls would share their stories and wisdom.   Come on girls - Tell us what is going on in your life as well as share your expertises.     xoxoxo, Michelle G
    70 Posted by Michelle Gweneth
Member's Blogs 186 views May 09, 2022
Day 3 of a Soft and Cuddly Morning...

Good Morning Everyone...

I find it so very wonderful to wake up in soft and cuddly PJ's and a soft blanket as the real me inside. I've discovered that my tucking is lasting all night and those male bits seem almost non-existent, if not a bit numb.  It feels good that, at least for a while, I no longer have male parts down there.

 

As I wake up, I imagine a whole day as Michelle and think about what I should do today. Whether it is getting dressed in a flowing summer dress and going to the park, or putting on my cute jeans and simply doing some gardening around the house, I feel a sense of joy.

 

I try to make these feeling last as long as I can, but alas I'm not out full time. My significant other doesn't share my joy of being Michelle, and wants me to limit presenting as the true me when around her. So I put on a male mask and pretend to be a male when she is around.  It is because she is afraid of being identified as a Lesbian. That part really hurts me inside.  

 

As time goes on, the need to be Michelle physically is growing significantly day-by-day. Living full time is what I truly want. The need to pursue losing my male bits and getting SRS keep growing, as does breast enhancement and female facial surgery.  For now that is only a dream, but someday I will have to take the steps needed, even if it means losing my significant other, whom I love.

 

So for now, I take hold of any moment I can be Michelle during the week, and treasure my dreams and waking up each day as Michelle. Even if it is only for a few precious minutes in my warm cuddly bed.